I wrote this back in august 2010. Still a struggle, but God has been gracious.


John Piper asks the question:
Do you feel more loved by God because he makes much of you, or because at great cost to himself, he frees you to enjoy making much of him forever? I’m talking feelings here, not theological precision in your head. Which?

I feel like my soul has just been stabbed...no...I feel more loved by God when he makes much of me. God, I love me more than You. I love attempting to satisfying my earthly desires more than being enraptured by You. All my study, all systematic theology, all my works, and I can't produce love that ends with you being the point of my love.

*sigh*

-James